Enter at your own risk (scary lady inside)....

Okay Tarah, you asked for it. You'd rather cranky chatter than no chatter. She's back. I want my care free, bug free, maintenance free, simple life back. I'm sick of calling plumbers, drywallers, roofers, siding experts, insurance agents, the bank, credit card companies and many more. I can't believe how simple my life was before this. Our weekend and evenings were relaxing and stress free. I spent my days playing w/Conner, keeping the house fairly clean and researching adoption. We exercised when we wanted to, went out for a bite to eat when we wanted and worried about nothing. Then I had to go and ruin it. I came to look at this house mesmerized by the rare and beautiful snow, wearing my blinders as I walked through the house saying "we'll tear up the carpet, texture and paint over the wallpaper and it will be good as new". Ha ha ha haaa..... what was I thinking. And I was perfectly sober and sane when I thought all of this. Then I found out about the "deadly mold" and noticed how unsquare the walls were, the sagginess of the ceiling, plenty of water damage and the demolition began. I still did great. Trash can after trash can of plaster I stayed optimistic. Through all the sweat and dirt I felt good about this place. Then our cozy, warm, new house sold in less than a week. Began to sweat it a little but new we were going to be on our beautiful farm soon and was excited. (you feeling the love right). Well then 5 weeks in a Super Eight started to wear on me a little. A toddler that wasn't sleeping, a stinky hotel w/dog shit in the hallway (no joke) and I started slipping.

From there it's been a series of highs and lows and today is a low. I'm sick of worrying whether or not to fork over the cash and pay someone to side the house instead of spending a four + weekends doing it ourselves (and by ourselves I mean Nater) and I know he'll do it to save the money but what's more debt and why should he work so darn hard? But that means more phone calls to differ lenders. Do we do the home equity, do we refinance, do we open another credit card with 0% apr??? What do we do people....? What do we do? Hubby is working his little butt off (while mine is getting bigger), nine months of family time is lost, etc, etc.

And lastly; insurance. I have a local lady and she absolutely SUCKS and I'd love nothing more than to call tomorrow (when our policy would renew) and tell her to ....... I don't know..... something really witty and clever. She was supposed to come to our house Monday to go over all the improvements, lower our quote, yadda yadda yadda. She never showed up and never called. So more phone calls to other insurance companies. I just got off the phone with one company I think I will go with just because they have good reviews and I'm desperate at this point.

What's my problem? Just another day of my 21 day PMS and 7 day period.
Woe is me; somebody call the wambulance.