We all fail at our job at times. My job just happens to include my children. Every. Single. Day. And today I'm failing them. I woke up feeling funky and while I'm trying to shake it I'm not trying hard enough. My mind wants to be elsewhere instead of here. I'm still going about the usual tasks (dishes, meals, laundry, purging, homeschooling) although I feel as if I'm not actually here. I'm walking around in a daze thinking about upcoming trips, goals I have for the house, my family, my siblings, camping, warm weather, exercising, etc. And then I look around and feel like I'm accomplishing nothing. Even if I did get ALL the laundry caught up today, it will be a mess again tomorrow. Piles will be scattered throughout the house. Sheets will need washed again. Towels will need washed. It never ends. Most of the time I can roll with the monotonous tasks of a stay at home mom but some days you just get tired of doing the exact same thing. Every day. Who knows what triggered this mood swing. Maybe it's the cold weather. My pale skin. My children talking back. Taxes that need to be completed. Dinner waiting to be cooked. A news story about sexual assault. The book I just finished about a wife losing her spouse much sooner then she anticipated. Or my sister in Senegal who was having a rough time the other day. Maybe it's hormones. And I realize how pathetic and selfish it all seems, yet I still can't get myself out of this pitiful state of mind.
Soon it will all pass. Life is really a roller coaster of emotions. Some days you are on a complete high, in shock by how wonderful life is at that moment. And then other days you just want to lock yourself in the closet and have a pity party. As a result, your closet will be looking pretty darn good by the end of the day.
I didn't need to blog about this today. But life is not always rainbows & butterflies. And this post just might make another mom (or dad) feel better about there state of mind. We aren't alone with these feelings. So from one parent to another - cheers for a better tomorrow.
Yours truly,
The Sulker
I'm not a parent, but I've definitely been having some of the same feelings that you have lately. I've been feeling really discouraged lately, and maybe it's the January weather (or the job rejections I keep getting) but I can't shake it!
ReplyDeleteI hope tomorrow is better for you (and me!) :)
Hang in there. You're a great mom and I have those same days. Miss you.
ReplyDeleteKujo
Now ain't that the truth! Hang in there Chandra. You are a SUPER mom, even on those days when you're in a funk. We're not perfect, and of course we're most critical of ourselves!
ReplyDeleteI had an awesome day! And I'm an awesome person! Awesome! I'm going to go do something awesome, like annoy the shit out of some gloomy people. WEEEEEE!!!
ReplyDeleteAwesomely,
Some Cheery Asshole
((hugs sweets)) hope your funk leaves soon : )
ReplyDeleteYou finished your laundry?! I'm jealous. Hope the funk leaves soon. Been there for sure! The days are long but the years are short. So true for stay at home moms. Hang in there.
ReplyDeleteOh, Chandra. I'm sorry you had such an awful day. Hope tommorrow is better. And here's hoping for some decent weather real soon. I'm sure that would help all of our moods! :)
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Beth.
You suck. Give up. Go back to work and make Nate stay home.
ReplyDeleteCall me tomorrow.
CHeers. Amen. Cheers.
ReplyDeleteYour not a failure,you have the funk! It happens to everyone, no matter the profession. The good thing is you always know it will pass.
ReplyDeleteTake care and have a Happy Friday!
keel
not a sulker--a realistic mom who's in the grind. hang in there.
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